Sigh. I have a dentist appointment today. I hate going to the dentist. I have a phobia about going to the dentist. It is so bad that fear kept me from going to the dentist a LONG time. I found a new dentist last year and have been going for about 13 months. I had to have a lot of work done so going has become a regular thing. I still don't like it. I worry about it for days and the fear is like a knot in my stomach. The fear is worse than the actual appointment. Once I am in the chair and the appointment has begun I am not so bad. The new dentist I go to is all women and they are all very friendly and understand my fear. I usually take Xanex before I go - yep it's that bad! I rarely take any drugs/medication of any kind so it's big for me. Sigh. It's only a cleaning and exam. It's not the pain I fear but I hate the water in my mouth - feels like I'm drowning and drowning is my worst nightmare. It's the reoccurring dream I have when worried/stressed.
Sigh. I will get through this. I will get through this.